Independence

July 4th 2017

Today marked a year to the day since I started my job. It’s my first proper job since I graduated University. (It helps me if I ignore that fact that my degree is in Maths and my job is in Marketing.)

I’ve learnt a lot in the last twelve months, and I think I’ve changed a lot too. I’ve always noticed the irony that I started my first job on Independence Day. A year later, I feel like I have that. I feel more grown up, more adult, more responsible.

That being said, I have no idea how to change a hubcap.

A few weeks ago my grandad went out of his way to get me three new hubcaps for my car so that I’d finally have matching ones. I went to see him this evening and he said ‘oh, let me come and see your hubcaps’. I had to tell him that I’d not changed them yet because I couldn’t figure out how to do it.

I mean, I gave it a go. It just didn’t seem to work, and I gave up far easier than I should have done because my neighbour was outside when I was trying to do it and I got embarrassed and I didn’t want him to think that I’m an incapable human being even though I am one.

So in a way I’ve grown up, but I’m also… low-functioning in other areas. This is always my excuse, but everyone has their talents. I had just shown my Grandad how to send an email for the 1,000th time, after all.

Reading back over my blog post from my first day (here) I can see that I’ve changed. I remember being absolutely terrified of every meeting and every conversation I had. I was so introverted, but a year of work has beaten that out of me. Corporately, at least… I’d still struggle to talk to a stranger on the tube.

It’s also coincidental that today one of our biggest projects went live (eventually). And I got to look at the new website and be proud, because I had at least part of a hand in that.

I’ve definitely learnt a lot, and grown a lot, but I am somewhat annoyed that I don’t feel like I’ve got much to show for a year’s worth of a full-time salary.

I mean, I’m renting a house, I went skiing, I’ve had a good time. But the first thing I wanted to do when I got a few paychecks was to buy a new car. And it’s a year later and I’ve not got around to doing that yet. I keep saying ‘next month I’ll do it’ and next month never comes.

So I think I need to get a new car.

Until tomorrow, preferably one that comes with matching hubcaps.

Jacn

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